It’s October aka Spooky Szn 👻

The fall is a time where hot, muggy days turn crisp and cool. Leaves change to a rainbow of reds and neutrals. As I was walking my dog, Miller this morning - I started seeing the creativity expressed in people’s yards that is Halloween decor. And I was reminded of how much I used to love scary movies. I would dedicate October as the only month that I was allowed to watch them because they would give me vivid nightmares and sleepless nights. But the minute it hit October 1, I was ready to venture into the dark, demonic, terrifying thrill of a ride that was scary movies.

But something changed in me & I don’t watch scary movies anymore. In hindsight, I recognized that I only liked scary movies because I was addicted to the brain chemical cocktail that was fear, anxiety, and paranoia. And in the context of a scary movie - it made my daily anxiety and fear have a reason. I wasn’t scared of life. My heart was racing and my mind was in a state of panic because I was watching scary movies - not because of the deep insecurities and fears that manifested in my life as overworking, over-proving, over-explaining until an eventual crash. It gave me a false reason for my mental state and sneakily gave me permission to ignore the glaring reality that I had many fears I was hiding from.

I know that this is not the reason most people watch scary movies. I didn’t even realize this was the reason I was watching them at the time. But now that I’ve negotiated a state of calm in my nervous system through the work I’ve done over the last 2 years, my natural state is Peace more often than not. And I have no desire to put myself in a state of fear and panic for no reason other than the thrill of a movie. I don’t want to have sleepless nights because of lingering paranoia that was given to me by an image on a screen. It’s just not my vibe anymore. No judgment if you love scary movies btw.

Things are not good/bad. How we use them or interpret them through the framework of our own perceptions is what makes things in alignment or out of alignment for us. For me, it’s just not aligned anymore. So I let it go.

Journal Through Where You're Hiding

Here are some journal prompts to help you think through the lessons my story presents. I suggest putting on some meditation music, lighting a candle, opening a fresh page, and just letting the thoughts flow through your writing utensil.

• What do you need to let go of in your life that you’ve been clinging to for the wrong reasons?

• How can you negotiate a state of calm in your nervous system? Make a list and schedule 1 of these activities into your day today.

It is truly amazing to me how far I’ve come. Going from a nonstop cascade of never ending thoughts - usually negative and self-judging to enjoying a peaceful, creative, intuitive mind. It makes me smile with joy to honor where my journey has led me.

And now I’m here, sharing how I did it with all of you via this blog, my instagram @thalialovee and with my 12-week coaching program The Integrated Self Program.

I believe we all deserve to realize our True Self and fulfill our soul’s purpose on this Earth. We were all meant for something.

And throughout our lives we get tested in numerous ways - some more painful than you think you’d ever be able to survive - and yet we do. Survive. But how would you like to thrive? That’s what I’m here to do.

The pain and suffering can end when we are brave enough to face our fears.

Happy Spooky Szn.